Have you ever imagined yourself happy even though youâre already at that dark place that everybody is afraid of going? A place where in you cannot be known by the people around you and the same goes to you, you do not know the people you encounter even though you have been with them when you were still full of colour and can function properly. You can still imagine yourself happy even though you are lifeless. Youâre happy because youâve done everything on your bucket list or what I call it my death note.
To tell you all honestly I have a few things I want to do before the end of my journey here on earth, and I am proud of saying that some of it had already happened, but some are still waiting to be granted.
P.S.: The crossed out notes are the things that I have already done.
- Ride one the most scariest ride âaloneâ
I am emphasising the word âaloneâ because I know that some of you will ask me if have I never had a childhood and how come I havenât ridden a ride at this age I am at. Well Iâm just clearing things up and yes I went to numerous scary rides with my cousins and friends but I always dreamt of just being alone in a scary ride and just keeping the fear all to myself all throughout the ride.
This thing happened probably not so long ago. It was the first time I went to Hong Kong, and yes I am with my parents and my younger sister but, my parents donât want to try the rides and my sister is too young to ride that roller coaster. So that was the chance that I was wishing for. I felt giddy and excited, I felt like a hot fire waiting to explode because of the excitement I was having on that very moment. As I rode that ride, I felt free, just like what I have imagined, and hoped to feel. It was so awesome!
- Graduate College.
So this might probably take a little more time. But I promise myself to strive harder, so that I could be able to make this possible, and I am hoping this April will be that moment. (Crossed fingers)
- Learn how to drive.
Summer this year, I promise to make this happen. PROMISE!
- Ride an airplane
When I was a kid I always ask myself what do birds feel when they fly, so that leaves me with this dream wherein I want to go fly with the birds and feel the same things that they are feeling whenever they are at the sky kissing those beautiful clouds above us.
And it did happen. It was before I experienced that one scary ride. Because it will be impossible to walk from Philippines to Hong Kong, so yeah, we did ride a plane going there. And it was so cool to finally be flying with birds and seeing all of the things all at once. It was just so magical.
- Be two places at once.
I had this dream of going to two places at once thingy, because of the movie based on Nicholas Sparks bestselling novel âA walk to rememberâ where in Mandy Moore and Shane West was the main character in the story by the way, named Jamie and Landon, they had a scene where in Landon, took Jamie out on a date and done exactly what she always wished to happen aka her bucket list. And I, being the kid whoâs fond of watching tons of Romantic movies, I am frankly saying that Yes, I am a hopeless romantic. And this dream or note is the evidence of it.
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- Learn how to eat exotic food
I always wanted to try new things, but too afraid to actually do it. So maybe before this year ends (even though the year is just starting) I get myself to cross this out on my âbucket listâ. (Iâll be using this term, because it maybe a little distracting if I used the term âdeath noteâ, so yeah, letâs continueâŚ)
- Influence and motivate the people around me.
I always wanted to be someone who can change a personsâ life, in a positive way. I want to let the people think of me as someone who gave them strength in order for them to be motivated and stand on what they believe in, I want them to realize that with the people believing them and the skill that they are having and a lot of hard work they can make through a lot of hindrances that life has to offer. I like them to believe in their selves.
- Have loads of happy memories.
First off, there is no person who wants the opposite of this. Second all of us want to have those happy memories be treasured in our mind and heart forever. And lastly, I, wouldnât trade any of my precious memories with anything, EVER!
- Travel âALONEâ
And yes! I am emphasising the word âaloneâ again. Because I know that travelling is easier with a companion because;
- You wonât get bored
- There would be a person whoâll be with you whenever you get lost. And
- It would be lots of fun, especially if you were with the person who you are really happy to be with.
But I would like you to think of it this way, if you travel alone;
- You wonât get bored because youâll try to discover a lot of new things because there is no one who would distract you, because there is no one that would talk to you, and will ask you numerous of questions, but instead you would be the one asking loads of questions to yourself on how things happened, so youâd end up researching more about this and that.
- There would be no one there when you get lost, and that is a challenge you need to survive, youâll be independent enough to find your own way without the help of someone you know. Youâll come out of your comfort zone and independently look for your answers in order for you to find the right direction you are heading to.
- It would be lots of fun, because youâll experience and learn new things on your own. Youâll have that satisfaction that you always wanted to achieve. And you can find your own true self while youâre at it.
- KOREA
As off now, this is my number one dream destination, and I canât wait to make this dream possible. (wait for me, Iâll be there soon, P R O M I S E !)
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- Find happiness in the ordinary
These daysâ people tend to look at their happiness as material things laying around in their surroundings, material things that gives them happiness, but just in a temporary way. I know that this would be a lot harder than my other wish lists. But this has got to be the most major thing that I would ever hope for to becoming true someday. I wish I could be able to find that genuine happiness that I deserve, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or the day after that, not even next year or 10 year after, but Iâ am hoping that someday, one dayâŚ
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- Make my family proud of how happy I am.
I know, as off this moment that my family is already proud of what I have achieved in life. But there is just one thing I want them to be proud of me. I want them to be proud of me not because of how my life turned out to be successful, or how high my salary and how much I earn for a living, But I want them simply to be proud of me, because of the things turned out from my life., and that they are proud of me because I am simply happy with my life.
- Fall in love with inner beauty.
Sure, it is easy to fall in love with a person with that perfect physical attributes, with their pointed nose, white skin, perfect hair, perfect teeth, killer smile, kissable lips, and that oh-so-charming eyes. But looks will never be forever, it may become wrinkly and old as time passes by. I know, and I am guilty myself for looking at the outside appearance of a person I tend to meet and judge them because of that, but as what my grandparents used to say, âwhen you love someone you may fall in love with your eyes but as time passes by the only thing that will matter most is your heart and your hand that wouldnât be untangled from the person you had chosen to love, because he had greatly understood you and despite all of the flaws that you have, he still chooses to stay and love you no matter what, youâll know from that moment, he is a keeper.â Iâm hoping that day would come and Iâll find someone whoâll I will fall in love with not because of the outside but because of his heart and same goes with the person who would find me someday I hope that heâll see the inner me, not just the outside me.
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- Find someone who understands me perfectly and cannot live without me.
And that someone my dear readers, I have already found. It is simply, MY FAMILY.
- Get married when I am ready.
I know this may sound crazy, but I havenât pictured myself in a white gown and walking down the aisle scenario, âYETâ not because I donât have a colourful love life or something, or simply because I donât have a boyfriend. But itâs because I am still not ready. I am trying to figure what my life would end up after finishing college, what will be my work after graduating and yada yada yada I still have lots of things to put in mind than forecasting my own wedding in the future. And for now, Iâll enjoy every bit of my youthful and single days. And maybe Iâll try finding a boyfriend for the very least.
- Have kidsâ at the most perfect moment.
Because honestly speaking, who wouldnât want to have kids on their own, like everybody wants a little mini me in the near future, right?
- AMERICA
I donât know I just have that gut that I want to work their someday. Yeah you are reading it right, I donât want to simply travel the place but, I want to really, actually work there. Sooo⌠Iâll see you soon? America.
- EUROPE
A cruise would be nice.(wink wink)
- Overnight at a beach
Masasa, Batangas and it was a SEA-rrific(terrific) experience.
- JAPAN
I have this fantasy on going to Japan and actually seeing (with my very own eyes) that pink cherry blossom bloom. And of course I always wanted to try their food there.
- Go to Disneyland.
Ever since I was a kid, I always wanted to go to Disneyland and last November, it finally happened. Oh it was so magical and it was one of the best parts of my life so far. I promise to go back again after college. Disney will always have that special place in my heart and I promise that no matter how old I get, Iâll always be a kid at heart that will always love Disney.
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- Dancing in the rain with my boyfriend.
Things that are needed in order for this note to happen;
- Rain (September would be great.)
- Boyfriend ( a real, live one and not that imaginary one)
- To sing in front of a huge number of people.
Well this was never impossible, even though I am a total shy baby. At I would like to thank the following;
First Iâd like to thank my mom, for always pushing me to sing in front of her friends and acquaintances.
And of course, the programme I am enrolled in, thank you for letting me out of my comfort zone.
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- Have a place of my own with my own money to pay for my daily expenses.
Well, this is a bit self-explanatory. So⌠Iâll be leaving it to that.
- Be genuinely happy and contented with my life.
Because who wouldnât want this, right?!
And the list still goes on. I know that it is a ton of wishes and I couldnât possibly do it, but I will never stop trying. I will try hard in order for all of that and more of it as it continues to grow. To be possible. Iâll be needing a lot of time, but I know I can do it. Â And I will do it. I promise, just before I take my last breath, I promise to get this all crossed out. Promise!